These last couple of weeks I have been pondering if there are any mothers out there that stick to the 1 very full-time important job of being a mother (without adding all the "other" stuff)? Do these women exist? I think not.
I have waves of wishing I didn't design websites or work with my husband in his business, or pine for a photography outlet, or take on these "jobs" that I take on sometimes that create pressure in my life. (mind you, these JOBS only can happen during naptime and after Astrid goes to bed at night.) Because I need to work so late into the night I wonder... is it worth really it? I wish I could be satisfied doing only ONE job - the one that matters to me the most.
The reason these feelings come in waves (and, thankfully, they are rare waves) is because no matter how much I plan sometimes everything comes to a screeeeeeeeching halt. My #1 full time gig is my girl, and when she is sick the whole world melts away, the deadlines diminish, and all these pressures fade away into the unimportant file.
It sure seems Astrid has been sick quite a bit this month...she was just getting over something and now, she is recovering from a nasty virus that had her on a cycle of soaring temperatures and waking in a pool of sweat dripping from her ringlet curls.
We are on the mend now, though! This morning was the first morning of notable improvement in a week!! Hooray! Not a moment too soon for Skagit, who along with me, has been pretty house bound since this past weekend.
As soon as a little girl gets up from her nap - we're hitting the trails on this beautiful Spring sunshiny morning!
I can't wait to see the smile return to my little girl's face. These were taken last week:
OH!!!! I almost forgot! Astrid has her new desk! We LOVE it! Thanks Wilson!
And.....as you can see she is handing me a crayon to draw one of her favorite people "Dan". He is a dear friend and Astrid just loves him. Out of seemingly nowhere she'll say his name or hand you a crayon and say "Dan, peas"... her notebook is full of scrawled smiley faces and toothy grins. Often, after I get done drawing she'll kiss the page. mmmmmwwah!